Monday, September 22, 2014

And, The Ball Drops.

So, the big opportunity, that was to answer the 14 year request, FELL. Hard.

I cried a little.

And I'm left wondering WHAT does the Universe WANT of me? I'm mostly convinced, after a week of sitting on the disappointing news, that what I'm to do is GIVE UP this goal, and refocus elsewhere.

So.. then I think.. Well, where? Feeling a little lost.

I haven't done any writing in weeks. I haven't touched the piles of stuff in the livingroom, hallways, basement, since getting the notice. I was disappointed. Now, I'm just scratching my head. Everything lined up so perfectly, so prettily, just to slam me with a bitter pie-in-the-face.

So. Right now I feel like I'm just carrying on. Still working on Saving Myself, and my kids along with me.

Hoping the Universe reveals what it wants of me, soon.

Lori.

Thursday, September 4, 2014

Oh my GAWD, The Ball is ROLLING!

Got some CRAZY big opportunity put in my FACE by the UNIVERSE this week. Loud and Clear. So many things have led up to this moment, and everything feels RIGHT. I'm so freekin' excited, and I'm working on manifesting the NEXT STEP for it.

So, today I spent hours purging with a girlfriend here to help me. She really lit the fire under me, and made me make the decisions of "keep or donate." Today she focused on the kitchen, and I touched some THINGS in the livingroom. We did two van loads to the thrift store, and bags of garbage were filled. I also marked some filled boxes with CRAFT SALE.

Tomorrow I'm in the basement. I will need to get some more boxes from the grocery. So exciting.

ALSO, I've been going over some training I did some time ago, to boost my home and not-at-home businesses. There are free videos, but the paid parts of this are totally worth it.


It's a weird thing transitioning my home business from a crafty and artistic side, to more of what I'm doing with Tarot and Reflexology. But it does feel good to purge. The Tarot and Reflexology are bringing in more than enough. I don't have to craft for money anymore. Having the extra space in the house feels so good.

Lori.

Monday, August 25, 2014

Liquidating the Craft Stash.

Here we are. The last week of August. My craft corner is still a disaster. I've been bringing embroidery to stitch and bitch, and that's about it. My heart just isn't in it. I'm busy with Reflexology, with the psychic readings, and with the thrift store.

So, I'm going to liquidate. all the craft shit I haven't used. There are books here just collecting dust. There are buckets of hoarded material. Scrapbooking stuff and jewellery making stuff, wooden pieces for painting, doll making stuff, etc etc etc.. it goes on and on. And it's taking up space. I figure it'll be easy to keep the embroidery stuff since I use it, and the canvasses and paint.

Clearly I'm going in a different direction these days. And by these days, I mean the last year. This is the second year I haven't done market with crafty stuff. I was busy doing the other things that the Universe has pointed me towards.

AND, if ever I decide I really really need any of those things again, because my income depends on it, I work at a thrift store. They will be easy to aquire.

It feels freeing. Now that I have a plan in place to get some money for all the things. Because that was a bit of a hold up. I have a credit card. It is full. I would love to put some money on it and get it chunked down. I've made no headway on it in the last year. And if anything, I've been leaning on it for gas and food in the lean months. I think I'm still catching up from last summers Lunacy.

L.


Tuesday, July 29, 2014

blaa blaa blaa.

So. Little Scotia has been all about THE INTENTION of creating. But, It's half way through the summer, and I haven't sewn a stitch.

Well, that's a fib. I've done some embroidery. But I really havent completed anything. It leaves me feeling a bit disappointed in myself.

It's been 2 years, and I'm realizing that I'm REALLY having a difficult time juggling kids and home and work on my own. Or maybe I'm just reviewing the past with rose coloured glasses? I'm getting no sewing done. However, I'm 10 hours a week at the thrift store, and about 15 hours a week at tarot and Reflexology. Which really doesn't sound like a lot, but my days are chopped up into little pieces. If I have an appointment at, say, 11am, I will be incapable of doing anything in the morning but wait around for that 11am. I'll be done by 12:30, or sometimes 2, and the rest of the afternoon is SERIOUSLY spent waiting around for 4, when I will start dinner.

It's all in my head, I know.

And the Universe has repeated to me last week, over and over, that I MUST SAVE MYSELF. There will be no lotto, only my own genius and action to work on getting ahead.

My brain doesn't do very well with the division, I think. I seem to recall, when I was crafting and only doing markets, I was earning more in pocket, than I am now, juggling all the things.

I keep checking in with the Universe about the Little Cottage House that will be mine... Sigh.

Working on raising my vibration to meet it. But, I also have to change something to raise my income. And still maintain house and family.

I'm ranting. I should be sewing. But everyone knows you can't work on anything when your vibration is low.

Going to listen to some music. And ponder.  

Thursday, June 19, 2014

Bizniz Bizniz.

Although the weather was FRIGHTFUL a few nights ago, it's been quite delightful today, and yesterday.

Last night was the MDBWA June's Networking / Year end event. (Stands for Midland District Business Women's Association.. but if I don't have the letters in front of me, I will NEVER get the order of those words correct. Ever. )  It was called "Bring your Bling"... I wore my little black dress, my dragon corset, some sticks in my hair, and a chinese patterned soft purse. My friend Tess came, all rock starred out. We had so much fun, that I THINK I forgot to network.

Also, yesterday I got a membership to MOMpreneurs, the simcoe county chapter. I'm interested to see how it will benefit my business. You know. Because that's what it's for, and all.

I think my brain is easing into the idea of being at the Thrift Store over the summer. I really do love it there. I just really also love summer time picnics and swimming and gardening and afternoon naps. 

L.


Wednesday, June 11, 2014

Trying to work it all out.

All the things I do, I do in order to be available for my children. Bottom Line. To take a full time job somewhere would not be as flexible as ALL my part time THINGS are.

*I work 2 or 3 days a week, 5 hour shifts, at a Thrift Store.
*I am available 2 or 3 days a week at the Wellness Centre, where I am a Reflexologist and read Tarot. I don't always have appointments, and will be there anywhere between 1 and 4 hours.
*Live Tarot. I do individual readings during the days I'm not at the other two places, while the kids are in school. I will do parties on weekends. I'm discovering it's not always easy to have coverage for those times.
*I sell stuff in a local shop. On Consignment. Art and toys I make. 
*I sell stuff online. I have a little online store, for vintage stuff. And for handmade stuff. I also have tarot readings available online through email. And although I don't promote it too much, I sell Tower Gardens and Juice Plus online.

Part of my plan this summer was to NOT be at the thrift store, but do the Farmers Markets with my art. However, the Thrift Store now NEEDS me, and so I am staying.

I'm not feeling incredibly organized. And I am feeling stretched. The juggling of all the things have left me feeling frustrated and like I'm accomplishing nothing. I have to continually remind myself my REASON why. I think "Wouldn't it be easier just to go get a J.O.B?"

I've been recalling a LOT this week, how happy and satisified, and how balanced life felt to me when I was doing markets, creating all week long, in between hanging out with the children. How I was paying all my bills. How I was NOT depending on the overdraft.

I KNOW Mercury is in Retrograde. But, come ON, Universe. Help a sister out.

L.   

Tuesday, May 6, 2014

Midlande Farmers' and Artisans Market, Midland. NEW LOCATION!

I've been SEWING!

Just got the news about the exciting new location of the Midland Farmers' and Artisans Market!

The market will be in the empty lot next to West Marine at the corner of Hwy 12 and King Street.  The parking lot that I believe, belongs to Barber and Haskill. The same entrance that you would use to get into the Highland Inn. SO EXCITED!

Although I'm primarily going to be doing readings at the markets, I will ofcourse be bringing some of my hemp jewellery, and these groovy new stuffed guys I've been working on. I have some plans to make some fantastic banners, and some quilted pillow cases with some SASS. (Always with the Sass.)

For the most part, I'll be keeping the Jewellery Boxes out at The Swap Shop on Balm  Beach Road in Midland, but little things will come to market with me.

I STILL haven't checked the state of my tent, though.... Should probably get on that soon.

Lori.  

Monday, April 28, 2014

Letting Go and Letting Gawd.

So, I have a pile of blogs. It's inevidable that some will get neglected.

I've been having all the deep thoughts today, and I wonder WHAT blog they belong on. And does it really matter?

My tomatoes are up about 3",and my Green peppers are up about 2". This weekend ( or possibly Friday afternoon) I'm putting some greens into the outside boxes, and my peas. Depending on how much rain there is. According to my planning, the weekend that just passed should have seen them in, but with the finicky April start, I'm feeling a little pensive.

It feels so good to get started, though.  This time of year reminds me of who I really am, when I'm not busy entertaining myself with bonsai and corsets and singing and art. I have such a love for gardening, and I love the little piece of property I live on. It KNOWS me.

Yes, I'd love a piece of land that is my own... I've been here for Ten years, though. And every year  I swear up and down will be my last. That I will finally be in my own home. I've been advised to love this home like it's my own. I've been told to let it go, remove all the love for it. So much energy work has happened under this roof. My children have grown up here.

And since I figure, unless the lotto comes along, that I'll be here until they are all grown and moved out, I might as well embrace it.

Garden.

There are more things swirling around my head. Maybe they'll end up on another blog..

Lori.

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Saturday, March 8, 2014

Oh Gawds, Is It SPRING Yet?

The weather was warm today. Okay, so the weather people say it only got to -3C, but it FELT like at LEAST +5.

Windows were opened, and the sun was BLAZING! It was wonderful. And, it made me feel like cleaning house.

This morning I listed a few new items on the Little Scotia Store on etsy, and a few items on my other page at etsy, Vintage Witch. It makes me happy. Plus, I've got SO MUCH stuff here! I just got all my toys back home, from the closing of Handmakers Haven. There IS another store opening soon that has offered me a space for my handmade goodies, however, and I'm in the decision process of what goes on etsy, and what will go to the new store!

Ahh, decisions, decisions.

A beautiful resin pin from the 70's - Each leaf and petal is in wonderful condition!


Hepplewhite side table Miniature - on Little Scotia today

There are Farmers Markets starting, in Midland and Penetanguishene, and soon Elmvale and Victoria Harbour too. All sorts of spring shows too.

Ah, I miss my studio space. The basement is just NOT the same. And the livingroom is just a DISASTER of creativity.

L.

Monday, March 3, 2014

Long Boring Ranty Pain Rant.

It hit me on Saturday. Out of nowhere. This BACKPAIN.

It starts around my shoulder blades on the spine... and it is red hot intense at my lower back (I have a herniated disc in that area.) and then the pain changes into something gum-bleeding sweet all the way down my thighs, into my calves and throbbing feet.

My hips hurt.

Today is Monday. I thought for sure I had the day off, but when I actually LOOK at my datebook, I'm supposed to do a thrift store shift. How can I do a thrift store shift when It's painful to NOT be in the fetal position?

It's the only position I'm finding any comfort in. On my back, knees tucked up and pulled as close to my chest as I can get it.

I. Am. Whining.
A Lot.

Painkillers aren't working. Hot baths give some relief for about 10 min after the bath. I cannot seem to locate my hot water bottle. The smelly turpentine rub I use isn't making a lick of difference. I've tried some stretches suggested by a friend who is an RMT. I can't even THINK about yoga.

This is the start of day 3. I'm confused about this, and although I'm PRETTY sure this is ALL about my menstral cycle... I mean, COME ON... this is the worst pain I have ever had in my life. Seriously. Child birth was a BREEZE next to this. And there's little relief. (you know, aside from bending myself into the most ridiculous position, where my feet fall asleep. It's also very awkward to read with your knees stuffed up in your face. )

Usually I have a bit of leg and lower back cramps on the first day of THE FLOOD. But I haven't even started yet. (although I've been getting symptoms for... 6ish days now?)

Is THIS what I have to look forward to in menopause?

And then I think. THERE ARE PEOPLE WHO ARE LIVING WITH THIS EVERY DAY. In some form or another. Fibromialgia, for one. How do they do this without some sort of self medicating intervention? Seriously. This pain has not reached my 'brain' yet.. and by that I mean, it hasn't totally shut me down. I'm able to concentrate on reading, and I'm not crying ... yet. (although that's not all true.. I cried my face off in my car when I pulled up from work on Saturday to see a rather large and heavy snow bank at the end of my driveway that was going to have to be shovelled.  ) However, I don't have the capacity to even take photos of things that I'm wanting to get on etsy. I can't think enough to do any readings for anyone.

This pain MEANS something. I mean, it probably means I'm lacking some vital nutrient or vitamin or mineral... BUT I'm supposed to be learning something from this. The question is, how can I learn when I'm busy sweating and wincing over the pain of it??

This too shall pass. It has too.

Sunday, February 23, 2014

Living Temporary.

Life really is Good. Everything is Awesome.

Tomorrow, I have NOTHING booked. And my plans are to CLEAN THE HOUSE. It's embarrassing. Really really really.

Today at the breakfast table, one of my daughters asked if they could paint the bedrooms, when we once again move them around. (They are getting their own rooms finally, as the Big Tall Man-Boy is going to college. )  This is a rental. And we've never painted the rooms. And I realized...

Every year is another year I insist that we will move 'next year'... I would like my OWN place, but realistically I would never be able to float a home on my own.

I have been here ten years. TEN YEARS. In a home that was supposed to be a temporary thing, to help us get on our feet and get our own place. I've never felt settled here. And the house shows it. It's a disaster. Nothing really has a HOME here, as it just hasn't felt like home. Temporary. For ten years. "I'll just set this here for now." And then months later, that THING is still set just there.

I'm working on my  money challenges. They come from what I've learned in childhood. This thing with the house, and the way I live... that comes from childhood too. We moved. A lot. Every place was temporary, and we could be leaving at anytime. Anytime we moved, we were given about a weeks notice, if that. Sometimes it was "So today is Wednesday. On Saturday we are moving, so pack what's important." I'm sure that's where this whole thing comes from with the way I am, with my living space.

Anyway. Tomorrow, I'm putting on my sneakers and cleaning. I need to find homes for the things on the floor and stuffed into nooks and cranny's with no reason. Hang my clothing.

And perhaps think about paint colours for the girls rooms. 

Wednesday, February 19, 2014

Hawt Like Dat.

Today FEELS like it's been a big day.

I had my first coaching call with a Law of Attraction coach. It was HEAVY, and I really didn't think it would be. We are working on deconstruction my "money" habits and the vibrations I currently have towards money. With a few simple sentences she brought out a TONNE of stuff that left me purging with tears. BIZARRE. Here I was expecting Love and Light and Touchy Feely Good Times...

I felt silly crying, but also understood that those tears were removing blockages. She walked me through a very nice meditation, and I came off the call (it ran about an hour and twenty minutes.) feeling lighter - and with some things to think about and write about.

I also have to do some meditations and visualizations ... I feel like I'm playing catch up, because I DO this stuff normally on my own. I'm grateful for the connection.


Then I went to my doctors new office. It's smaller, but I think he's got extra rooms he didn't have before. It was hard to tell, because it was all twisty turny in there. Anyway, I went in to show him a spot on my arm and on my face. I'm a little sensitive to skin 'stuff' after having cancer removed from my face back in...was it 2007? Anyway, out comes the liquid nitrogen and ssssss ssssss on my face and arm.

Didn't see that coming. I figured I'd be shipped off to the skin guy to have some removed and tested. But my Doc said they didn't look or behave like cancer. He actually said "When it doubt, zap it." I laughed. I like him. He laughs so much easier as we both get older. (He's been my Doc since I was 11. ) Now my arm and face have a red sore spot after the burny burny icy burn.

Good Times.

Then, a girlfriend looked at my bashed car. (She knows stuff about cars. She's Hawt Like Dat.) and assured me that it wasn't an emergency that needed to be fixed right away. I felt better for it.

Now, I"m sitting here with a bottle of water, after stuffing my face with raisins. Just approved an ad that will run on top of the Pizza Pizza boxes shortly in my town.

I need a nap. But I have a tarot reading in about an hour, so I'll have to drink tea instead. (I've had nothing caffienated yet today. That, and the emotional purge earlier, are adding to the "oooh, I need to nap." thing.

Lori.

Oh, by the way. I've begun writing again. I hope it turns out to be a story! ha!






Monday, February 17, 2014

Why For, Any Of It?

Today, I am having a "What's it all about" sort of day. "It" being Life.
All the wishing and all the struggle and all the planning and dreaming. All the work that people do, and all of the goals we set for ourselves. All the worrying. All the hoping.

How did this start today... well, it's Family Day, so the day got off to a delightfully slow start. A late wake up, and a tea, and a long hot bath. The littles have been going rounds with playing with each other and fighting with each other upstairs away from me, while the eldest sleeps as he has to work tonight.

I've been reading. Then I spent some time taking the meat off of a chicken carcass I boiled this morning, for a soup base. Then I got online and planned out my spring/summer garden, going through seeds. I also looked around my very messy house and thought about cleaning it. In there somewhere, the "What's it all about" hit me. Why do I do any of this? Why do any of us do any of it?

I have a craft/art corner set up in the messy livingroom that I haven't used in about a month. I have a violin sitting on my craft chair, also untouched for weeks and weeks. I have a disasterous kitchen. A frightening basement full of THINGS that I only keep because at some point I paid money for these things... (kids toys, craft stuff, clothing. Collectable shit.)

 Then I start in on myself about MONEY. Gah.

I really want my life to mean something. It doesn't have to be BIG and splashy. I just want to mean something, do something good for people. Have a reason for being. A reason that doesn't involve a race after money, goals that involve accumulation.

If only I could live off of Love. Live to accumulate love, and give love, live IN love... and have that be enough.

What would I do all day if I didn't have to worry about money? I would still garden. I would dance a lot. I would read and nap without guilt that I wasn't DOING anything. I would write stories. I would walk more. I would do more yoga.

I still probably wouldn't have it in me to clean the house though.

Blaaaa.

I wonder what this day is trying to teach me.

L. 


Monday, January 13, 2014

Tomato Plant Stink and Mint Babies.

My seeds came in from The Cottage Gardener today, while I was out. Yay! The box was small enough to just fit into the mailbox. Squee!!

Green Man who minds my Tower Garden

They've got new packaging this year. It's pretty. And in colour. 
The Cottage Gardener new seed pack design.

It looks like the collection packs have new packaging, too. 
The Cottage Gardener Kitchen Garden Herb Collection.


Also, we got to the end of a head of lettuce I actually purchased. (The Tower Garden lettuce is ready now, though. We've been picking at it.) Anyway, popped the end into a plastic container and stuck it on the Tower, in front of the lights. This is only 2 days of growth! I'm assuming I will need to put some food in that container soon, though. 
Growing lettuce from old lettuce


Here's a full view of the Tower Garden. So, one of the lettuces I bought just WON'T go crispy. It stays soft and buttery. (A packet I bought last year from the grocery I think..or maybe Canadian Tire.) the Mesclun Mix around the sides and backs are doing okay though. 
The Tower Garden in my kitchen


and,  See those TINY TINY little guys? That is Mint. That I planted 2 months ago. And I pretty much gave up on them. Was going to put something else in the spot, and when I checked yesterday, (or the day before???) boom... babies. Mint babies.
Mint. Please be Mint.


A nice close up shot of the flower buds that the tomatoes finally have... I"m going to have to cut back some of the green on these guys soon. At this rate, I should have fresh tomatoes from the tower in... March or so. Heh. Handling these gives me the Tomato Plant Stink on my hands. hehe. 
Tomatoes finally have little flower buds.

Now that all my seeds are here, I'm going to have to see about getting some small containers for indoors, for the herbs that won;t fit in the Tower Garden right now...

Sunday, January 12, 2014

The Seed List, Part 2

In addition to the seeds that are coming from The Cottage Gardener, These are the seeds I have left over from last year. There aren't very many in each packet:

  • Scotia Tomato
  • Dwarf Blue Curled Scotch Kale
  • Little Finger Carrot (I'm not sure what I'll do with these this year. Last year they didn't produce, mainly because it wasn't wet enough, for long enough for them. I've tried these in containers, with very little success. The first year I did them, they were awesome....)
  • A few Spaghetti Winter Squash and Delicata Winter Squash
  • Quadrato D'asti giallo Pepper (sweet pepper.)
  • Dwarf Gray Sugar Pea
  • Bulls Blood Beet
  • Lots of Mesclun Mix and Lettuce for the Tower Garden 
I also seem to have

Midnight Madness Petunia

  • some Morning Glory seeds saved from my own garden (although I'm not sure what kind they are colour wise...) 
  • And I have some seeds that I've marked as "Midnight Madness Petunia".. they were purple, but they are from 2 years ago, and I'm not sure they will germinate. I have TONNES of them though, so I'll do a test on them soon. 
  • Some miniature sunflower seeds. I seem to recall I was gifted them either in a swap or for exchange from some tomato seedlings one year. I cannot recall...
  • an Envelope marked "2010 - Columbine" - I'm sure this is from Heather
  • Goats Rue (I could never get this going)
  • Chimney Bellflower (also could never get this going)
  • Common Foxglove (also... never got it going...)
  • German Speedwell (this I'm sure is the jerk that overtook my strawberry patch and choked it out. Jerk.)
  • Strawberry Foxglove (never saw one..)
  • Wood Betony
  • "Wildflower mix"
  • JUMBO morning glories
So, the deal with the flowers is... I grow Veggies. I have wonderful success with food. Flowers.. well, I guess I just don't give them the attention they deserve. I haven't bothered with any flower, aside from Morning Glories, in about 3 years. Maybe 4.

This year, I'm attempting flowers at the Beautiful Man's place. The plan is to germinate inside (instead of direct sowing) and hopefully have more luck... Not sure how many of those flowers will grow, as some of the seed is quite old. 

Anyway. I gotta go wash towels...

Bonsai!!!

So, I'm waiting for my seeds to come in. My Tower Garden is doing well, and we've been eating greens off of it regularly.

Today, though, I somehow slipped on the internet and ended up in Bonsai land. And now ofcourse, I'm envisioning things like THIS in my home:



Ofcourse, THAT tree is probably 5 years old. Or maybe 50. I don't know. Dammit, Jim, I'm a veggie grower, not an arbourist!

Anyway, I remembered that I've had a little bonsai kit on the bookshelf (came with a book, a teeny tiny pot, but the shears were missing. And there's no seeds, or planty dirt.) so I took the book off the shelf.

They've got little bonsai pots at the Thrift Store all the time. I bought some appropriate soil stuff. Now, to find seeds. I guess it all depends on what sort of little trees I want for my fairy bonsai homes.

I must consult the Oracle (aka Google) and figure that bit out....

L.

Thursday, January 2, 2014

The Seed List, part 1, 2014.

So, here we go again!
The seeds I've ordered for this years garden:


Black-Seeded Simpson Lettuce (Looseleaf; Certified Organic) Pkt - 500 seeds
Black Tuscan Palm Tree Kale (Certified Organic) Pkt - 250 seeds
King of the North Sweet Pepper (Rare; Sustainably-Grown) Pkt - 30 seeds
Black Beauty Summer Squash (Certified Organic) Pkt - 20 seeds
Five-Colour Silverbeet Swiss Chard (Certified Organic) Pkt - 70 seeds
Druzba Tomato (Red; Certified Organic) Pkt - 30 seeds
Scotia Tomato (Rare; Certified Organic) Pkt - 30 seeds
Parris Island Cos Lettuce (Romaine; Certified Organic) Pkt - 500 seeds
Martino's Roma Tomato (Paste/Sauce; Red; Certified Organic) Pkt - 30 seeds
Chives, Common (Certified Organic) Pkt - 100 seeds
Golden Detroit Beet (Certified Organic) Trade Pack - 210 seeds
Bouquet Radish Mix (The Cottage Gardener's; Sustainably-Grown) Pkt - 300 seeds
Lavender, Old English (Lavandula angustifolia) Pkt - 50 seeds
Oregano, Greek (Origanum vulgare hirtum; Certified Organic) Pkt - 100 seeds
Parsley, Italian Dark Green (Petroselinum crispum; Certified Organic) Pkt - 100 seeds
Thyme, English (Thymus vulgaris; Certified Organic) Pkt - 70 seeds
Kitchen Garden Herb Collection (includes 30 packs each of Cilantro, Basil, Dill, Marjoram, Thyme.)

I have some seeds left over from last year, too. But they are WAY the shit across the kitchen, and I don't want to pick through them just now. 

I had considered beans, carrots, pumpkin, onion... but, for me, these things are so easily purchased locally for so CHEAP, that it doesn't really make sense for me to struggle with growing them. I have a limited amount of space, even though I'm pretty good at using it wisely. It's a bonus to live in an area with so many local farmers and growers.

Many of the greens and herbs are going to go into my tower garden inside, as soon as I get them. The Tower Garden is currently filled with growing lettuce and mesclun mix, plus a few tomato plants, and there's a basil plant in there too. But, soon it'll be time to eat what's there, and start new. Except for the tomato, ofcourse, which probably won't give me fruit until March.

I also want to get my hands on some flowers. Not necessarily for my garden space, as I tend to FAIL miserably with flowers here - but for my BOYFRAND. Or, my "Ol' Man"... hehehe. (Holy shit, I have an Ol' Man. You have no idea what a bizarre concept this is for me, after the last long year. I digress.) Anyway, my Ol' Man mentioned LAST spring that he wants a little garden in his wee little back patio area. So, I'm going to scrounge and beg flower seeds from my goodest friends. I do have quite a bit of seeds for morning glories, and I think some little purple things.. but I'm thinking Holly Hocks. All easy things to grow.

It's late. I have JOY tomorrow, and I'm not even close to ready for bed yet. I'm all high on seeds.